Why must i feel this way..? Why? Why? Its all your fault but i can't blame you cos its not you're fault. Tak faham?? Its ok.. Its what i feel inside of me. Its better for u not to understand. Damn!! Im reallie reallie lost inside. Angst, Happiness, confusion, depression, lost, lost, lost. Why must i feel this wae..? Wacky, crappy, funny, friendly exterior, but inside - A lost child in a shopping mall, ship lost at sea, face without a name, a bird that lost its wings, a door without a key. Why...? Why must i..? Somebody please guide me... I want it to stop but how? how?? Please make it go away... I beg of you. Why must it be me?? Why must it affect me?? Of all the people, why me?? Its all YOU..!! Im not angry at you, dont take it the wrong way. Its not your fault. You are what you are. Why must it be you?? Its lucky you cant read this. Things happen, for the good and for the bad. Im angry with myself. This wounds they may not heal, confusing what is real and what is not. My walls are closing in. All mixed up. So insecure, so.... I cant even find the words to describe and its all because of U. F*#%..!!! I dont wanna feel this wae. Take me back to the way it was, please.. The truth is, i dunno what to do anymore.. Thats why i'm so f*$%-ed up.. Trying to find someone else to blame, but its me that i should blame Arrghh..!!! Please make it go away. When you see me, I wont even show it. Let it go.. should i?? but.... nvm. Theres so much i wanna say to u, so much i need you to know, but i know i just cant. Life sux!!
The only thing to look forward to, and make me forget about you, are my friends. For that , i wanna say thank you, to each and evryone of you. You know who you are. No need to mention any names. Its you people, who are close to me and have made a difference in my life. Happy when i'm with you guys.. The people i laugh with, the people i converse with, the people i consoled to, the people i CRAP with. It is U who take me away from my problems. For that, i thank you. Especially you, my new best friend. People elsewhere are moaning the death of their family, and here i am, selfishly grumbling. What to do.. Sorry, but thats how i feel. Nobody can change that..
Sat gonna see the Floorball guys play soccer from 9 - 5. Riezal jadi keeper yang aku nak tengok, and lookin forward to sunday's training.. Cyaz
i will overcome it, one way or another... that is my promise
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2:52 PM by
Awin
