dont know what's the right thing to do.
Should i go forth, and discover the joy that lies ahead?
Should i stay back, and be compelled with what i have?
never have i received a sincerity this much.
Neither this, much have i given.
everything right seems to point in this direction.
but somehow, i'm shackled by the foresight that it will eventually crash n burn.
for me, i've been there many times, clawing my way out each n everytime.
my fingers bled, my nails worned out.
n i never want to pull u down with me.
its not fair, for u.
its just, for me.
i guess the circumstances is just so different this time. maybe that's what makes it so scary. it is never this easy. it's just never is.
Thats what i realise.
stepping out into reality is just not my thing. i've always lived in a world of pretend.
But i'm trying to change my point of view.
where lies make up the most part of it.
where i brush them off aside.
i'm not used to swallowing my pride.
i can't break the wall infront of me. dammit, it just won't fall. everything that i hate, everything that i fear, everything that i want to forget, its built of that. i just can't tear it down.
and what if i DO want to put my hopes on this..?
what i wouldnt do.
the chance.
that's all i have to give.
the chance.
that's all i need.
the chance.
its on the other side of your wall.
break dammit.
break.
Nothing to do at 10:00 AM by Awin