When you walk away
i count the steps that you take...
Do you see
How much i need you right now
Thursday, December 29, 2005
1st time i joined MI club training
Woohoo...! I got into MI (Milennia Institute) training, Haha... The coach at MI asked me and Adzmin to come down for trial, to see whether we're good enough to join their training. Thankfully i got through...
Met up with Dzafiigo (Eh, not bad eh.. 'Dzafiigo'. Better than 'Dzafiiraul' aper saje..) at Toa Payoh MRT. Akil, Shai and Zaki met up at Paya Lebar MRT. When we (me n Dzaf) reached the bus stop in front of MI, it was SO totally not what i expected (tempat macam kilang Malaysia gitu... haha) The place is VERY old and looked condemned. I initiallty thought the place was kinda large, expensive, prestigious and all that... The word 'institute' threw me off but it was like a broken down old factory like that.. Pathetic. haha
Wanted to wait for Akil and Shai at the bus stop (Tak brani nak masuk seorang, nanti rase kekok gitu... haha) Then Shamil called me to come in cos he's already inside (Whew..! nasib) The coach hasn't arrived yet, so we changed into our kit and passed the ball around. Dzaf was at the so called 'gym' upstairs, running on the treadmill (Nak step konon... Peegidah!!) After a while, Shai and Zaki arrived, followed by Akil roughly 10 mins after... After a while, we helped set up the boards. I wasnt surprised that only the SP guys set up the boards..( yang lain semua pemalas sak.. macam si Dzaf tu.. haha)
The coach, Amir, soon arrived. Aku dah rase segan sikit, not knowing how he was like. When i got to saw him, he seemed quite friendly ar... (Dzaf, if you're reading this, INI KAU CAKAP HANDSOME GILER...??? Aku lagi... hahaha) His spoke mostly english, got some 'slang' to his english too..( ala.. macam nak step mat salleh gitu, haha..) Not only that, rabak sak Dzaf... kau bukannye nak intro aku. He had to come up to me and ask who i was. So i xplained that i was Dzaf's friend, the one she talked to him about, last week. I was xpecting her to xplain to Amir bout Adzmin cos he wasn't able to come for todaes training as he had twisted brain, haha... ankle lah. At last aku had to tell him that. Kawan aper engkau, Dzaf??? Not only that, i havent even officially join their training and shes already trying to 'psycho' me to donate to MI. Gini macam eh kawan? Binawei betul ar kau!! haha... Tengok, aku ader ingatkan kau, Adzmin - kawan aku... haha.
We started trainings with some passing movement (aku sini dah rase segan sikit) cos i was afraid i wouldnt be able to be on level with their standard of trainings, but after a while, i felt more comfortable. Keith was there too. He brought his airhook skills with him too.. haha. Trainings continued until 10pm when we started our match. All 5 of us, SP guys, formed a line. Me, NurAkil, shaZakiri, Shaini and Shamilia. I kept thinkin simple play, strictly no MONDOK dribble, haha... so we played for an hour. Each line played for only 2 mins.. I even scored a goal in my debut, top corner.. (Chey!! Action ah tu... haha)I think i did fairly well, maybe enough to impress Amir to let me train with them, but at that point i still dunno.
Game stopped at 10pm (besok skolah dah..) the moment of truth is upon me.. (Ader sikit suspense ar.. haha) Again i expected si 'dodo bird' to ask Amir if i can join anot, but i guess you can't expect a lot from someone.... with limited intelligence, wakhakhakha..!!! So again i approached Amir and asked, "Sir, so how? can i join your trainings anot?" he said, "Yeah sure, I see you've got a lot of potential. Can enter nationals if you work hard. I want you to play for my 1st division" hahaha.. ok lah he didnt say the last few parts ar... (Muke tak tau malu..!! haha) so there i was packing my stuff when there's this (budak sesat) the same one i met at the stadium, keep pestering me to donate to MI. Aku terus cabut, join the others at the toilet. We all changed together and went back. Shamil wasnt with us. We went through a long route back to the bus stop cos we were running from the cooling down session. Rabak... haha We took a bus to Paya Lebar MRT and went home. I think stopping at Paya Lebar is so much more convenient, than Toa Payoh... Bengap! haha
Overall, the trainings there really worked up a sweat. Not too intense, not too laxed. SP training is nothing, compared to MI (no offence..) but SP training more enjoyable though... but you can really feel that you can improve with that kinda trainings.. Learned a few 'unique' words there. 'Wakil' and 'Redound'(Sumer Akil yang cakap.. entah aper maknenye.. haha) oh ya one more thing i juz remmembered during training. Theres this tall indian girl, wearing blue MI jersy. DIER PAKAI SLUAR TERBALIK....!!!! wahahaha...! Kite sumer ketawa.. karut sak! Ok lah thats all folks, Adioz...
This two weeks of holiday, has turned out to be two weeks of Floorball, but im not complaining. haha... (gerek per!!) 1st week of holiday - training on monday, jungle trekking on wed at the HSBC tree top hill - 24 click, and training on fri. 2nd week - cycling trip at pulau ubin, followed by training the following day, and lastly, a friendly game against TP on friday, WOOHOO!!! All this training in preparation for IIVP Tournament. cant wait... Yess Ah!! (Sha sha, if you're reading this, click on the 'SP Floorball' link to see the game fixtures. u said u wanna watch the game, kan? haha.. ajak Azie skali)
I fell during the cycling trip and now i've got a deep cut on my right elbow (tapi masih sihat... friday boleh main friendly. haha..) It was a bit 'malu-ating'(nasib baik sikit orang nampak aku jatuh... Whew! haha..) I was going down this steep slope (aku lagi nak step, tunduk kepale, cam 'racer' gitu...) haha. goin down at full speed, Botak was at the bottom of the hill, waiting for the others. Then, at full speed, i was riding on the outside lane of the road. I brake-d too late, i think... not enough braking distance lah. (aku jatuh, style tak? hehe..) i fell on a bush, but lucky i wore my NCC camou pants to prevent any cuts on my legs and luckily Zana brought her medic kit. (slamat aku... lain kali, jangan dengar cakap aku) :P
After that incident, the 'kutuk' and the humiliations started to come pouring!! " aku tak tahu naik basikal lah.... kene apply bicycle license lah.. buat malu NCC jer..." (cos i was wearing my NCC camou pants) and ohter 'stuff' came out. (kurang ajar eh, korang.... sabar je, Wan. haha...)
Then we reached the accident area, and true enough, a few of us fell. (aku tak jatuh,,, dah serik ah!! haha..) yeah. Farok and Dzak was next on the casualty, after me, with Farok having a deep cut on his left elbow, thigh and a sprained wrist (tulah... kutuk aku lagi kan? mulut masin. haha, )Dzak fell behind him. it was a domino effect ah, but he was ok. Next was Rabbiah. She fell at the middle of the slope, cutting her palm. she pressed the front brake!!! (camne tak jatuh??) which would cause her to flip forward. haha... Zana had to work overtime as the medic. kwakwakwa...
we finished around 6 plus. played stunts with the bicycles before returning them (main 'skid' pun gerek eh? haha...) my attempts of doin a wheelie was 60% successful. haha... giler
took the bumboat back to Spore, makan-ed at Tampines with bO, Idhzaar, Dzafiz(eh, style tak, aku fuse namer korang? - dzaf and hafiz,) Dani, Rabbiah and Zana before goin off 2 nenek's house. (rushing ah... sampai luper nak bayar duit makan sumer... aku bukan nak cabot lari lah!! thanx eh, Idhzaar.)
all in all, it was a memorable experience. good and bad. One that i wont easily forget (kecian Mal, kau tak dapat ikut...)
lets see... this fri there's the friendly game with TP at 11am (sempat tak, solat jumaat lepas tu? hmm... Azfar, tanye Bo, main line aku ah.. haha) This is our strongest squad for IVP by far... so lets achieve something before all the 'old birds' fly away... (OLD BIRDS sey, kene...) haha.
Saturday - New Year's eve. Am i goin out?? hmmm... depends.
Why must i feel this way..? Why? Why? Its all your fault but i can't blame you cos its not you're fault. Tak faham?? Its ok.. Its what i feel inside of me. Its better for u not to understand. Damn!! Im reallie reallie lost inside. Angst, Happiness, confusion, depression, lost, lost, lost. Why must i feel this wae..? Wacky, crappy, funny, friendly exterior, but inside - A lost child in a shopping mall, ship lost at sea, face without a name, a bird that lost its wings, a door without a key. Why...? Why must i..? Somebody please guide me... I want it to stop but how? how?? Please make it go away... I beg of you.
Why must it be me?? Why must it affect me?? Of all the people, why me?? Its all YOU..!! Im not angry at you, dont take it the wrong way. Its not your fault. You are what you are. Why must it be you?? Its lucky you cant read this. Things happen, for the good and for the bad. Im angry with myself. This wounds they may not heal, confusing what is real and what is not. My walls are closing in. All mixed up. So insecure, so.... I cant even find the words to describe and its all because of U. F*#%..!!! I dont wanna feel this wae. Take me back to the way it was, please.. The truth is, i dunno what to do anymore.. Thats why i'm so f*$%-ed up.. Trying to find someone else to blame, but its me that i should blame Arrghh..!!! Please make it go away. When you see me, I wont even show it. Let it go.. should i?? but.... nvm. Theres so much i wanna say to u, so much i need you to know, but i know i just cant.
Life sux!! The only thing to look forward to, and make me forget about you, are my friends. For that , i wanna say thank you, to each and evryone of you. You know who you are. No need to mention any names. Its you people, who are close to me and have made a difference in my life. Happy when i'm with you guys.. The people i laugh with, the people i converse with, the people i consoled to, the people i CRAP with. It is U who take me away from my problems. For that, i thank you. Especially you, my new best friend. People elsewhere are moaning the death of their family, and here i am, selfishly grumbling. What to do.. Sorry, but thats how i feel. Nobody can change that.. Sat gonna see the Floorball guys play soccer from 9 - 5. Riezal jadi keeper yang aku nak tengok, and lookin forward to sunday's training.. Cyazi will overcome it, one way or another... that is my promise
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(makan with Farah Vierra)
1/11/2004
The past few days, i've found out just how caring some of my friends reallie are. U know who u are.. One of them, unexpectedly, is a person whom i just met and i know the least about, compared to my other friends.. Thanx again yea.. Dunno how many times ive said it.. haha but seriously lah.. It reallie shows. Moving on.. waited for SOMEBODY for 15 mins to have lunch with on Sundae. haha.. (Siape eh??)Makan at Mcdonalds Bukit Batok. Talked about 'stuff', her upcoming play 'somsang' or 'sohmsung' or maybe 'samsung' haha(tak tau spell dah..) Acting as a prostitute kan? haha.. Got any 'action' scenes tak..? hehe.. Sure i'll come, if im not too BUSY, unlike...... haha. Just dont forget to inform me bout the details aite..?
We went 4 training afterwards. Hahaha.. Found out something in the train. Apparently, my birthday is the same as Farah's mother, so kalau nak belikan birthdae present tu, dont forget to buy for me as well tau.. haha apeda! Reached dover at about 1:45 We were early. I thought the regular early birds like Farok and Akil dah sampai, but nobody there.. ( Eleh.. macam tak tau gitu, training pukul 2, datang pukul 2:30 haha ) Training started.. Our regular coach/player - Jie 'W'ong was away, playing in the 1st division league. So too were Huda, Dzaf, Ah Shan and Zana.. (The last two belen belen je.. hehe) So the remainder all the kental kental who are not good enough to play in division 1.. haha (termasuklah aku skali..)
Ah Shan and Zana came from MI after having played in the league. Ah Shan, wearin all blue looked like a Japanese floorballer. So too was Zana (baju je macam Japan, tapi skill, JAUH..!!) hehe Akil was the acting coach for the day.. How do you think he fared..? Oklah Akil.. hehe but the trainings a bit disorganised dah, a bit noisy too, especially the minahs from Taszillian.. haha (rilek ar..) Before training, we were practicing our shots. I was the makeshift defender.. Then Ah Shan's shot kena my uh.. 'that' part.. yes 'THAT' area. Bullseye lagi.. Punyelah sakit.. Damn you Ah Shan..! Watch your shots lah.. haha Now i know how Gay Focker (Meet The Fockers) must feel.. I squirm evrytyme i think of it.. tapi i got a good shot of Wani's left thigh.. Oooh Sedapnye!!! haha (kalau nak lagi, just tell me ok Wani? anityme.. haha)
Timothy Quek came down to join us for training. He was hunting for mooses.. haha get it? If you're as blur as a 'dodo bird' (hehe) then nvm. wahahaha..! Akil, Farok, Adzmin and Hafiz were shortlisted to join their training but not confirm whether they can join the other mooses.. haha.After some skill training sessions, we played a few matches. Initially it was supposed to be mixed but then the other group's girls, dun wanna mix.. Anti! haha So we played, ( aku ader tunjuk sikit modok dribble aku.. wahahaha.. ape saje!) We ended training around 6 plus. By then, most of the girls have gone off oredy. All thats left were Wani, Jolyn and that cock shooter... Basket!!! Hope Dzafiimorientes, dont forget to help me ask eh.. Im tired of havin trainings juz once a week. Boring dah..! OK thats all for now.. thanx for drooppin by, dun 4get 2 tag.. Cyaz..!!
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(Rizal sleeps in mosque)10/16/2004
Yo..!, or should i say.. Assalamualaikum haha.. Nak step alim ni. Katerkan bulan Ramadhan, bulan yang suci dan mulia, bulan yang Allah banyak memberi berkat. Hahaha.. macam pak haji dah. Its been some tym since i've blogged. As you'all noe, todae's the 1st dae of puasa(fasting month). Happy ar..! You noe why? cos i can cut down on my spending, which means i can save more, which means i can faster settle the debt i have with Ming Jie(I bought his floorball stick). Had an okay dae todae, a bit tired lah.. I'm not the only one. Every single 'jemaah'(people who went for friday prayers) were also restless. Could tell by the sound of their voices. 'VERY ENTHUSIASTIC!!' haha.. Evryone was lyk half dead, Bacer doa, setakat 'Amin' also tak larat seh.. haha. Even Rizal, who was sitting beside me teros K.O(tidur). Skarang semuer orang tahu rizal tidur dalam masjid! haha rilek ar Zal, aku pun tido. Jangkit dari kau..
When came back from the mosque, i had the Geomatics practical exam. Its superness the simplest wan..(fantastic grammer huh..?) Oh ya.. Speaking of exams, mines coming up this mondae, all the wae thru thursdae. Apeda..?! why can't they have lyk one or two daes interval before the next exams, so that we'all could study?(Lagi tak tahu eh.. We'all Singaporean where got study so early?? Alwaes last minute wan.. haha. Correct anot?). Saturdae still need to go to woodbridge for the CD. Should recommend Najibah to admit herself inside. Seemed suitable for her, can also mix around people her type. Betul tak Naj? hahaha... Sundae also gonna go Harbourfront, maybe alone(independant lah.. kirekan), to study. Exam on monday. Ok lah, Gotta go oredy. Need to 'sahur'(very early morning breakfast) and pray also (alim pe..) so, to all my Muslim friends, selamat berpuasa and dont do anything yang dihalangi tuhan pada bulan yang mulia ini.. and to all the non-muslims(jolyn, jenn, fabian) who could not understand what i wrote, dun worry, its something bad about each of you ok.. ADIOZ..
went for fb training yesterdae, but went to skool earlier to study (ni betul-betul blajar...) Met up with my classmates Rudy, Hamidah, Nurul and ANUR!!!( namer cam kat dalam crite Bujang lapok, ader satu budak kecik yang slalu mintak $0.20, Ayu... AYUUUUUU!!! tapi, ini punye - ANUUUURRRR!!!) hahaha... giler. we studied till around 2. while studying, Anur asked me who do you think will be the next FB president? then i thought, lets make an unofficial vote for it... it should be intereseting (Azfar, tak dapat jadi captain, jadi prez pun jadi lah, eh? hahaha... nanti kau punye jerzy, ader letter 'P' for president... amacam??)
training started at 3pm as usual... (kater jer kul 2. janji melayu!! CAPTAIN pun lambat... Hmmph!!) hahaha.. Jie Hong came down to replace the Bo-tak(the bo-tak sak... the d-zak, the d-zaf, the mR-Az, hmm... namer aku boleh tak?? the A-win? the Rid-u-wan?? wahahaha... ) training was a bit more physical that day... (biaselah... budak army turun. kalau Andy turun camne eh?? ) He got a GOLD for his IPPT, ITP, IIVP... wahuauaua!!! speaking of IPPT, this coming wed is the guys 2.4metre run. (tak takot lah.... peegidah!! boleh lari mata tutup ar...) however, yesterday's training brought up questions bout 'commitment' (korang tahu lah eh, aper aku tenga cakap ni... sape yang vote??? kau eh, Akil?? hehehe...)
there might be a friendly with RP this thursday, but not confirmed. Yeahoo!!! (tapi kat MI lagi.... Bleah!!)
adioz~
oh yar.. we guys lost the girl's bag of 21 balls... WOOHOO!!!
I TWISTED MY FREAKING ANKLE!!!! It was hurting so much when i woke up this morning... Fell during FB training. It didnt hurt then as compared to today... (sampai aku pegi skolah, bawak payung, jadikan tongkat sak!!! Arrgghh... macam orang bodoh!! tak hujan, bawak payung..) but, what to do?? hmmm..... its getting better, though.. hope i can recover in time.. (kalau tak, sape nak main untuk line 3? AZFAR??.... WAHAHHAAHAHA!!!!!!) haha.. rilek ah, mRAz.
Lets see, what else?? hmmm...... Oh Ya!! i've finally decided regarding the PASIRIAN/MI debate. My decision?? I've decided to join PASIRIAN.... next season. haha, yeap... i've decided to extend my contract with MI for another year, before joining PASIRIAN... see how lah. haha, perr jerr.
U know, as im sitting here, doing this... there's this guy sitting beside me - indian, mid 30's, receding hairline... haha. BAU TERUK SAK!!! dunnolah whether his B.O or his minyak wangi or what... that smell!!! (macam kau pegi gunting rambut kat kedai mama, diorang ader pakai entahlah, this minyak 'keling' that they wanna put on your hair after the haircut... *oops* can i even say that word here?? Farok jangan terase eh.. hahaha... bau dier cam gitu ah.. Tak boleh angkat sey... macam Fahd punye toilet seh..) WAHAHAHHAA!!!!! juz kidding...
I dunno, but why do i always see the big picture in my life?? its like looking at my life from way above, and when i do, it juz seems so monotonous and boring. (makan, tido, skolah, extras...) so what am i gonna do after this?? im gonna shower, eat, watch TV, BLAJAR (asal?? tak caye? Hmmph!!), SOLAT, then sleep.... it goes on and on and on till i finally graduate, move towards NS life, then work and so forth.... till i eventually DIE!!! whoa...!! looking at the overall picture, it makes the small things i do in between, so insignificant, but why is it that i fail to see that its these small little things which add spontanuity in one's life? Actually, i DO see it, but.. Haiz...................................
btw, Fahd, your toilet smells juz fine...
Najibah, i still want that cd.... blue
Dzaf, im staying at MI... "are you happy now?? Oooohh Yea" lagu Michelle Branch
Adioz~
can people stop copying my 'end of entry' lines?? mesti nak ikot.. menyebok jer!! takde creativity. YES, im talking bout YOU... Hmmph!! *bluek* haha...
Whats up with malays nowadays?? i was walking towards the bus stop near FC2, when i saw this malay guy queing up at the 'chicken rice' stall... (APER NIE???) i dun wanna say too much ah, Mal has said A LOT oredy... (betul tak, MAL?) haha. Yeap, not to mention Dino's, Fish N Co. (ini cumer restaurant saje... aper lagi dengan PUB/BAR sumer..?? gerenti ader punye!!!) Its either they're getting more brave or more ignorant. or isit more STUPID?! tsk tsk tsk...
Im still contemplating bout my future career between MI or PASIRIAN (haha.. cakap macam 'star' maner entah?) Can playing opportunities really be the ultimate factor to decide my fate?? OK lah, generally the training at MI is obviously higher and better compared to PASIRIAN but playing opportunities is what reallie counts... isnt it?? I mean, whats the point of training and training but you dont reallie have that much chance to play?? Hmmm....... its gonna be a long trip to MI. I can use that time to think bout it (kalau Azfar dapat main Division 1, AKU pun nak!!! hehehe... tak puas hati!!) Watever it is, i've gotta make the decision QUICK!!!
This heavy burden has been lifted off my shoulder. Persistence and sincerity!! *slaps forehead* kwakwakwa.... HAH!!! My mind is finally at ease..
