Nothing to do at 7:23 PM by Awin

CAN SEE ANOT? THE ENTRY BELOW... =p

Nothing to do at 10:27 AM by Awin

Went to Geylang last erm.. Monday or Tuesday (cant remember) My first time, this year.. haha, kecian. Honestly, it wasnt what i expected it to be. i thought the demolition of the pasar area would hinder the 'kemeriahan' of the bazaar, but it didnt. Went there straight after skool. Hamidah said she saw me at Paya Lebar MRT but i didnt see her... Once we got off, we headed for Hajah Maimunah. as usual, its always MY suggestion or MY decision to where we were gonna eat. Hmmph! =P

Along the way, we passed by a few people asking for donations. Looking at them, i couldnt help but think and be a bit sceptical towards their motive. (bukanye aper ah, but tengok those Mats and Minahs mintak derma eh, mcm lain macam ah... entahlah) but i juz didnt say anything ah. that incident reminded me last time when we juz finished our friday prayers at Masjid Darussalam. i dunno whether i was with my classmates or the SPFB guys. we were headed for the bus stop, when we saw this teenager, holding a file of some sort, asking a pakcik for donations. Im not saying that its wrong, but his attire left me a bit fishy... (bukan bau Ikan lah)

We reached HM at around 630pm. It was already packed inside so we juz sat outside. Ordered different lauk-pauk. (sup daging, bagedel, sambal paru, sambal goreng and asam pedas) all for less than $10. ok wat.. So after buke, met up with her friends, who we found out, were apparently sitting upstairs. hahaha... so we juz jalan-jalan around there. they wanted to buy lampu kelap-kelip (eh, lampu LAP-LIP kan? or KELAP-KELIP?) hahaha, but in the end, tak jadi... Apeda!! hahahaha... kecian sey, 'sumbody' tried to make a joke, but nobody heard it.. Wahaha... kecian. =P We went off by 9 plus. (Mak dah kol ah... hahaha)

ok, now i remember when it was. It was on Tuesday. and today, im going there again with classmates later. (nak makan dier punye buffet pulak..) $12 per person... Fuuyoh!! This weekend, im going to my nenek's house to help clean the place. she lives there alone, and (takkan nak harapkan dier sorang. kecian kan... siape lagi nak harapkan? Cucu harapan dier jugak..) every year, its always my Pakcik who helps her, so im helpin out this year. Apparently, she told my mum that she wants the front door repainted, the curtain rails put up, on top of the usual cleaning work. Sheesh!! (macam tahu jer, kiter nak datang kemas rumah..) haha, nvm lah... its been a while since i've seen her. 1 year, to be exact. the other time my parents went to visit her, they said she was a bit sick, (dah nampak lagi tuer) =/ what to do..? thats the way life is, i guess...

on top of that, i received an sms saying that my eldest uncle, Cik Rosli, was hospitalised yesterday. Breathing Difficulty. He's in alexandra hospital.. Called Shasha, juz to check up on her family. He's ok, but under observation. Alhamdulillah. He's my uncle that Bo works for - reason for my captaincy. =P He's the one who so called, took over my atok's responsibility in looking out for all my other family members. so i wouldnt wanna imagine should anything happen to him.

Nothing to do at 9:37 AM by Awin

Went out with Illias last saturday. It was Danial's turn to stay home... (asik bawak dier jer) haha. Anyway, it was his burfday last friday, so juz thought of bringing him out. Went to the National Library together with Sasha and her sister (luper ah, namer dier) =P. Initially, Illias was rather shy when he met them. (sbelum tu, dier bising.. banyak berbual, lari-lari sumer... jumpe diorang jer, terus senyap. tanak tengok muke pun) hahaha... cant help it. he's shy.. (macam Abang dier jugak..) =P but then, later in the day, he began to get comfortable in front of them.

All 4 of us went to the Kids section and sat at our usual spot. (Usual spot kepe?? at the Kids section lagi. haha...) yeah.. then looked for books to read to my brother. i was reading aloud to him. then Sasha joined in while her sister was doing her English homework. (kecian... dah masuk poly masih kene buat English HW) kwakwakwa... so i read to both of them (macam storytelling session gitu) hahaha... apparently, my reading aloud to both of em attracted more kids...

reading ended at around 4 lykdat, then it was 'free and easy' for both of them. Illias wanted to just sit by my side cos hes still shy around Sasha, but she invited Illias to go look for books. (sampai pimpin tangan sumer...) hahaha. in the end, they juz played together, running around, hide and seek, Thumb Wrestling..

We left the library by around 545pm, cos i promised to be home for Buker... (keluar Library jer, langit berjerebu... Chey!! BERJEREBU sak!!! Nurul, kau tahu makne Jerebu tak? hahaha... Foosball? =P ) hahaha... it was so hazy by the time we went out.

Until today, i still havent been to Geylang yet. its been what? 2 weeks already. hmm... things at home has been quite restrictive, cos my mum works in the morning, while Daddy works at night. (DADDY sak... ) hahaha. Should i buy new baju kurung? hmm... dunnolah. maybe no need if the old one still fits but i doubt so, cos... =P. hmm, see how lah. but i do need to buy a new Songkok. (alah, kalau ikut rase, bukan saje songkok.. Baju, Seluar, Kasut, zakat... Chey. haha Yan, aku nak beli kasut Hi Top Converse brown tu... jangan sibuk ah. Wallet pun kau nak ambik samer design. Lagu nak curik dari aku. Please ah, stop..)

Ive been skipping too many classes. but its not my decision, believe me. hopefully, this will be the last. i dun wanna lag behind in class... (takle kasi Nurul overtake aku. Wahahaha, tak baik sak.. takpe, nak mintak maaf skarang pun no use, so juz accumulate, tunggu raye baru mintak maaf, ok Nurul? hahaha..) Hey, at least its not as RUDE as making fun of someone elses' father, whom you dont even know. F**KED!!!

Nothing to do at 3:41 PM by Awin

Nowadays, most of my time is spent AWAY from the com, thus the reason for the occasional updates, unlike before... Wednesday was truly great. Dinner was a bit late, but still great. The Ayam Penyet was penyek, but great. Sambal was too hot, but great. Soya Bean wasnt enuf, but great. The 200gm of Famous Amos cookies WERE great... (bukan WAS tau =P) The Ice Blendeds were great... becos its FREE!!,thanx to Dzul. (Kau masuk line one... Redzwan pegi Line 3. hahaha)The quiche was a bit cold, but great. The Chocolate cake was great. Banana cake was great. Everything, however, was too much...

Nothing to do at 9:31 AM by Awin

It was sometime around Fasting month, last year, that i posted this entry... juz felt like putting it up again. it was damn meaningful... Sorry, Zana. hahaha... here goes:

I had the most 'meaningful' dream last night, SERIOUS!!! It was lyk an eye-opener for me, believe it or not. Here goes - i was somehow dreaming bout the FB raye outing (Raye kan nak dekat... haha) I cant remmember the whole dream but it somehow started at Woodlands MRT. It was in the evening and all of us (SPFB) were on the station platform. I wasnt sure whether we're boarding the train or not. I was talking to Najibah (Katak BERG/BOGEL!!) haha. I was talking to her when suddenly one of the girls was crying. Should i say who it is? hmm... haha k lah, it was Zana (of all people) hehehe... Ya, it was her (aku bukan nak kutuk kau tau... it was in my dream. HONEST! Takkan nak bohong... hahaha) But can u imagine her - CRYING?? wahaha.... Kkays back to my 'dream'. Zana was crying (tersedu-sedu) so i asked her " asal nangis?" then she told me in a sobbing tone that her sister called her to say that her mother just passed away. I almost shed a tear. After a while, i woke up after that.

From then on, this so called 'issue' has been consciously on my mind, but i dunno why. Izzit because of the upcoming bulan Ramadhan?? Hmm... I kept thinking bout it. Imagine if u lose a loved one ( lagi-lagi kalau during bulan Ramadhan or worse, Hari Raya!!) Just think about it and imagine. So far, the only person close to me, that has left, was my 'Atok' (grandfather) and that was already SO painful, now what if it was your own mother?? - the closest person in your life. The one who takes care of you when you were young, the one who puts your needs before hers, the one who would sacrifice anything/everything for you, the one who tries to give the BEST for you. You get what i mean. Now imagine if this person was gone from your life. I dunno about you, but my mother is everything to me and I dont think i'll ever have the strength if she was gone , and i dont know how people like Idhzaar was able to cope emotionally when he lost his (sorry eh Idhzaar) cos i remmember your blog entry bout your late mother. (aku betul-betul salute kau ah...)

Honestly speaking, i feel a bit 'emotional' juz writing bout this, and especially during Ramadhan, some people cry to show their emotional distress while listening to the 'Takbir'. I guess my mum was thinking bout 'her mum' when she listened to the takbir too. She would then reminisce the good times she spent withe 'hers' and eventually, tears would start rolling down her cheek. I have always understood the 'significance' of the Takbir, but never have i experienced it emotionally. I hope it wont have to, but it WILL happen sooner or later... I cannot imagine Ramadhan without her - when shes busy making kueh Raye or preparing for the 'Buka Puasa'. I would then help her in the kitchen cos if i didnt, she would nag and nag and nag, hahaha... Imagine if she was gone - an empty kitchen, an empty seat at the dining table. A seat which used to be occupied. HARI RAYE - Everybody's wearing their baju Kurung, getting ready for the 'mintak maaf ' ritual and you only ask forgiveness from your dad cos the seat beside him is empty. I cant imagine that.... It just wouldnt be the same.

With this eye-opening dream , i want to make sure i do spend enough time with my family - my mother especially, treasuring every single moment i have with her. ALL of us should!! before its too late, and we're stuck cursing ourselves for not spending enough time with them when they were alive. I try to make them happy, and keep myself happy too, hahaha... (takkan nak sedapkan hati diorang, tapi kiter sendiri tak suke...) Nobody said it was easy, but its not impossible....

What an Entry!!! whew... New polls! Adioz~

Nothing to do at 10:19 AM by Awin